Hebina

I realized today was a birthday of a friend I had who passed away a very long time ago I still regret things I told him the weekend before his passing I think about what life would've been like if he hadn't been hit by that car. He'd love all the friends I've made of the the passed few years. It hurts but I hope that he is in a better place then this world. I think about messaging sometimes hi rp name comes up at times his number is still in my phone 3 phones later from my old side kick now my note 4 has his number and I wont ever delete it he's my friend on facebook Skype imvu I miss him and I hope he forgives me and knows that I think about

It's 6:45 am in the the morning I'm awake and haven't slept yet but I wanted to write a journal. My friend and I [the Internet husband and I] were talking earlier in the night we spoke about getting over past crushes and then the future he told me he didn't think well of the future cause he's always worrying about it now but I said I can agree with that but also when I think of it I think of you now I feel like i may have over stepped clung to hard? That's definitely a thing but what's better than the truth? As I've stated before nothing is better than the truth. Maybe it's just not my time for love in my future? Is that even a thing people s

Hope y'all had a great valentines day did you get to see the Deadpool? Twas pretty cooool NO SPOILERS I PROMISE!   Anywho. I thought I didn't have plans as previously written in my last journal but apparently I was wrong a friend of mine came down from another state to be my Valentine. I literally have never had someone do that for me I have to say it was the sweetest. Now onto our title ladies and gents thoughtful thoughts are thoughtful, honestly I know it sounds like the most redundant line but when I said it today by accident it was down right honest. And whats better then that? NOTHING I TELL YA. Being honest with someone and telling the